This is an utterly selfish post and is really for me more than any of my readers :-). However, some of these things have been on my mind recently. I have questioned who I am… at the core. I have a tendency to see who I’m not, and that too is reflected in this piece of prose. But, I have a recognition that in the places I feel like I fail the most, usually God has also most gifted me with an opposing strength. This prose piece comes out of those thoughts.
I am a mother
I worry too much, and get frustrated often.
But, I love my daughter desperately, and would lay down my life for her safety and joy.
I am a wife
I nag too much, and try to fit him into my mold.
But, I am the guardian of his dreams, the keeper of his secrets and will shift and grow to love him more.
I am a Christian
I worry over theology, and succumb to infighting.
But, I love the bride of Christ and will passionately share the love I’ve been given.
I am a healer
I sometimes avoid the sick when I am afraid.
But I lay hands on the sick and the Holy Spirit flows, and I walk in assurance that God still heals.
I am a writer
I write about things that don’t interest others and think I am somehow unique in my perspective
But I lay my heart on the line, and interact with others with complete honesty through my writing.
I am a health nut
I miss fast food and secretly love chocolate.
But I know my body is a temple and I choose to give it the best nutrition possible.
I am an athlete
I hate to run and I can’t throw a ball
But I push my body to it’s limit and don’t give up even when it’s tough.
I am a prophet
I am sometimes wrong and mistake my own voice for His
But I learn to hear His voice more clearly every day, and see His power touch lives through my words.
I am a princess
I often act like a pauper and feel utterly low
But I am of the royal household and when I turn my face to His I cannot live in indifference.
I am a counselor
I talk too much and listen too little
But I have great compassion for others and will pray for and with others even when I am in a dark place.
I am a lover
I put arguments before people and put pride first sometimes
But I have an overflowing sense of God’s love for me that brings conviction, healing, hope and grace.